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Post by Teneile on Feb 14, 2008 1:53:08 GMT 1
School was out. Teneile hadn't been sleeping well and her grades were slowly declining. It wasn't that she wasn't trying, she did try, but.. things were happening at home more and more and making it a great deal unhappy. Teneile barely looked forward to coming home anymore. Kazuma had changed severely, it was like night and day. At times he was sweet, in the morning when he woke up he would hug her, and tell her that he loved her, and she would think for moments that he would be the same as he had been through their whole relationship but when she got home he would be different, and she couldn't take it anymore, she was afraid, he had already hit her twice.. and she was beginning to think he was either cheating on her or hated her, had fallen out of love with her for some reason, a reason that she could not fathom, she didn't understand what was going on.
She got out of the car and closed her car door. His chopper was in the driveway. He was home. She sighed, dark circles played beneath her blue eyes as she headed up the stairs to their home. Opening the screen she stepped onto the porch and walked down the house, she was met at the door, as she opened it by her dogs, which were much like her children. She knelt down for a moment as she hugged her dogs. PIcking up Bella and hugging Rocky tightly as she prepared herself for the mood that Kazuma might be in. She stood up and put Bella down as she put her bag down quietly. anything could set him off so she tried not to do anything wrong. She wasn't eating well she could barely keep anything down, from stress and the pregnancy. She was thin, but it didn't matter, not even Kazuma cared, all he did was yell anymore. She looked at the clock.
Crap she was five minutes late starting dinner. With a sigh she cleared her throat.
"Im home." she called into the house as she headed to the kitchen to begin dinner, hoping for him to be happy.
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Post by Kazuma on Feb 14, 2008 2:29:03 GMT 1
He was at home getting home early like he normally did. He had been a different person these past weeks though he didn’t realize it. Kazuma had finally gone down a very dark and slippery slope starting to abuse steroids and other growths substances, they had changed him considerably. Kazuma had always been big and buff but now he was a monster of sorts, none of his regular clothing even fit right anymore when it came to his legs chest and arms. There was a huge event coming up in several weeks one his endorsers all wanted him to win and they had been very clear on it. They had gotten him the stuff, knowing their own market brand shit would not cut it and told him to load up saying that if he was not in the top 3 he would be dropped. Kazuma didn’t run it by Teneile at all knowing what she would say to him taking this junk, all he knew was that if he didn’t do this there was a chance he would lose and their lifes may come crashing down.
He didn’t even realize he had hit her already thanks to the shit in him, his mood swings were becoming worse and worse and he was teetering back and forth from the man she loved to the kazuma that had originally grown up in new york.
‘I’m Home’ she called out. He was in the kitchen reading the paper as he did every after noon when he got home after looking through the mail and smiled at the sound of her voice. She was late but he didn’t care he had missed her as he always did even in this fucked up state he was in. She came into the kitchen and he stood up grinning “Hey baby” he said in a happy tone and he went over to hug her taking her into his arms the way the normal kazuma always would after a long day without her
“Everything okay…I missed you” he said gently looking down at her. Not even realizing how thin she was getting.
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Post by Teneile on Feb 14, 2008 2:43:46 GMT 1
The paper was sat down and she prepared to be yelled at because of his problem, and because she was late, but instead he pulled her gently into a hug. She closed her eyes, nuzzling into his hard chest, he was not nearly as cuddly as he had been, there was nothing soft about him anymore and she feared the worst. She had seen shows about steroids and she feared that's what it was, but the one time she had asked he had hit her, she had carefully consealed that bruise with make up. She had never worn make up in the past but now it had become part of her routine in the mornings. She sighed as he asked if everything was alright and told her that he missed her. She looked up at him.
"Yeah sure, everythings great." she said as she kissed his cheek softly and pulled away.
She was normally quite the cuddler but lately she just.. was tired... and she didn't want to deal with it. She wasn't feeling good, the pregnancy was being hard on her along with the stress. She went to the fridge and got out some steak that she had set to marinade, she didn't ask Kazuma to do anything, the bruise on her left arm was from that when he grabbed her to yell at her about asking him to do stuff when he had to train. She got out a pan and placed the steaks in it before shoving it in the oven. Cooking was something that was far more than just something to do now. It kept her sane. She began to peel the potatoes she was going to boil and mash, and the carrots she was going to steam as she worked on dinner.
"How.. was your.. day?" she ventured softly as her eyes kept to the food.
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Post by Kazuma on Feb 14, 2008 3:12:47 GMT 1
She answered looking up at him, he was so blind he could not even hear the stress in her voice. Normally he picked up on every little thing he could tell when she was worried and when she was sad but now he could not even pick up on the stress in their relationship the one he had put there himself. When she pulled away he stepped back a bit already feeling a bit annoyed with her something that her kazuma would never feel when she wanted her space.
She began cooking and asked him how his day was, he found one of the counters and leaned against it. “The same boring bullshit at school…had to leave around 12 when I got into a little fight with Mr. Malkoney your math teacher…I bumped into him and welll” he gave a dark chuckle “I hope you like your sub” he let out a relieved sigh as though the violence had actually been fun for him.
“Then I came back here, played with the pups and did some more training down stairs” He came over to her behind her “And when I stopped I just could help but think about you for the rest of the day. “He leaned in and lightly kissed her neck a few times as she still peeled at the potatos.
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Post by Teneile on Feb 14, 2008 3:26:41 GMT 1
He.. openly admitted to attacking a teacher. HER teacher, someone he didn't have anything to do with at all. She didn't get it, she didn't understand what the heck was going on.
"KAZUMA!" she cried
She spun around. She was likely going to get it now, but she couldn't stand for this kind of violence. He was taking it out on completely innocent people and she didn't get it. She didn't understand the change in him at all.
"How could you?! How could you go and beat up a poor random man. He's done nothing to me and certainly hasn't done a damn thing to you." she said as she looked up at him her eyes were upset and pissed but how could she not be.
"What is going on with you!" she accused as she sighed. "Cook your own damn dinner." she growled as she turned to leave.
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Post by Kazuma on Feb 14, 2008 3:41:01 GMT 1
She spun around and went off at him like he had done something wrong, like he was the first student to randomly slap up some teacher . Why the fuck did he have to be any better then the rest of the animals in that fucking school. She looked so upset with him and he could tell it but even with her blue eyes looking so hatefully at him he could not give a shit. And then tried to leave telling him to cook his own dinner.
She headed out of the room and he grabbed her arm tightly just as the walked into the living room. “Who the fuck told you to go any where” he said in an angered tone his hand gripping her way to tightly around her slender arm. Rocky could already be heard near the door growling in a bit of defense, Teniele was his mommy and while Kazuma was leader of the pack so to speak the dog was trained to protect her and it was even more so now that she was pregnant.
“So I beat up one fucking guy big deal It happens all the fucking time in god damn school” he all but yelled trying to make some unknown point “Now get the fuck back inside you little bitch and don’t ever question what the hell I do”
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Post by Teneile on Feb 14, 2008 3:48:56 GMT 1
He caught her. She gasped at the pain she hadn't been prepared for it and his hand was strong. He turned her and began yelling at her, tears running down her cheeks but he wouldn't care he never did. he began to curse at her, as she struggled to get away he only cinched his hand on her arm tighter making sure she could go nowhere. He then told her that she had no right to judge him and that she was going to get back in the kitchen and cook. Even going as far as to call her a bitch. She could hear Rocky protecting her, but even Rocky would get hurt if he tried to attack Kazuma, though it might get him off of her long enough so she could get away. He didn't let go as he walked back to to the kitchen and tossed her in it, throwing her against the counter, bringing her back in her place apparently.
She was mad now. How could he? She was already bruised and he was mad, well that was just great.
"How DARE you!!" she cried as she looked up at him. "You do NOT own me you self righteous bastard!" she said as she growled at him watching him grow more angry by the moment. "I can't stand what you've become I'm so tired of this shit Kazuma Sagara you are walking a dangerous line right now you idiotic excuse for a monkey!"
She was pissed, if you couldn't tell.
She picked up the platter with the potatoes on it and threw it to the floor water and potatoes as well as glass going everywhere.
"THERE IS YOUR DAMN DINNER!"
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Post by Kazuma on Feb 14, 2008 4:01:57 GMT 1
She began to go off at him making this moment so much more worse for herself in Kazuma’s altered state of mind. He could feel his fist ball up something a normal kazuma would never do around her. And as she continued Rocky could be heard braking now that deep loud bark he had as he felt Kazuma’s anger.
It was then she made the big mistake and tried to take charge of the situation, she threw the plater the potatos were on smashing them on the ground and yelled at him. His eyes went cold and beady and before she could even prepare for it his right hand swung in a powerful back hand that would hit her hard across the face and all but send the little thin balarina flying toward the flooor.
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Post by Teneile on Feb 14, 2008 4:10:16 GMT 1
Her eyes grew wide. His hand was balled up and she didn't even have time to duck or react. She looked up with fear in her eyes as he hit her, and hard. She cried out as she fell to the floor, she clenched her stomach as she threw up the contents of her empty stomach on the floor as she looked up at him, he stood towering over her. Rocky lurched forward and bit Kazuma's wrist as she began to get up, Rocky trying to keep Kazuma from landing another blow on the young ballerina. She was crying, but she was more than hurt, she had lost all trust in Kazuma all together. She got up and moved passed him not even looking into his eyes she grabbed up Bella, and grabbed her dancing bag, knowing she had clothes in it. Grabbing her purse she lookd back but not at Kazuma, but at Rocky.
"come on boy, we aren't wanted here." she said softly.
Rocky barked and trotted over to his Mommy as she took his collar and headed out. Perhaps this was the last time he would see her. Right now, she didn't care, she was too hurt, she was betrayed, she didn't think that Kazuma even cared any more, she didn't have anything to say to him. They went down the stairs and she put the kids and her bag in the car before she started it up and took off. She did have a safe place to go, and the key to get in. HIs parents had bought a small house nearby planning to stay often when the child was born. She headed there, it was only about ten minutes away and the dogs loved the beach so much. She pulled into the garage so it wouldn't be obvious she was there, as she got out with the dogs and her things and headed up and into the house that she had only seen a few times.
Inside she went into the living room, leaving the blinds and everything closed, and the doors locked, she really didn't want anyone to think she was there. Se sat on the floor, and cried, the dogs coming to her. Bella in her lap and Rocky whining close by as she wrapped her arms around the large dog and cried her large tears into his fur. Her body hurt, her face was swelling and beginning to change color, but none of that matter. Because it was her heart that hurt the worst.
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Post by Kazuma on Feb 14, 2008 5:51:07 GMT 1
He hit her and hit her hard,he had no idea he could ever be so cruel to the woman he loved so much. But before his enraged self could continue Rocky decided to intervine biting Conrad hard on his wrist drawing blood and holding onto him while Kazuma began to curse. When she ran he managed to fling the dog off his arm and ran to Teneile who had called him. He held his wrist “Mother fucking dog” he screamed as the door slammed behind teneile and the dogs.
It was then that kazuma lifted up the table and threw it hard against the wall smashing it to bit and craking the wall in a fit of anger. “Stupid Bitch” he yelled up into the air and he then punched his hand right through one of the cabinets. When he removed his bloody hand from the wood he tried to make it into the living room but as soon as he walked through the door way he began to cry and cry hard. “Teneile” he sobbed as he curled up onto the floor crying “Come back” he cried harder. He knew she was gone and most likely gone for good it had hit him like a ton of bricks.
He was in pain, so much pain it almost sonded right to go downstairs to the gun locker they had an blow his own brains out the back of his head, he was angry hurt and in so much pain all of which he had brought on him self. He would not move for hours, just cry and cry it was all he could do. For and hour he stayed there until he could get up and started making phone calls. He called her cell fist but she gave no answer, her friends at the dance studio but none of them would tell him anything. He had lost her and all he could do was go inside and clean up as best he could
~~~4 days later~~~
He was walking outside the upper parts of his arms were bandaged and wrapped tightly. He hand not been cutting himself just scratching repeatedly over and over again until he would scratch right through the skin. It was his nerves, knowing he had no one, he couldn’t even call his parents knowing that they would disown him if they knew what he had done and been doing to himself. He had not seen Teneile not at school or at the studio, they refused to let him in over there a police officer was out in front that made sure he couldn’t get in..
He was walking through the neighborhoods, it didn’t matter how far he walked he just needed to keep walking. He was walking near were his parents had bought a place, he figured he should call them soon and tell them what happened so they didn’t waste their money. He would just let Teneile go to new york and live there, she could have their child and have his parents help her there away from these hands that hrt her.
His left hand was over his right fore arms scratching away nervously long deep and hard already beginning to break the skin, he needed help and he knew it but he had to see teneile and he prayed that if he knew his wife right she would be were he thought she was.
“Teneile” he said as he came up to his parents knew place and knocked on the door. Nothing was outside and the blinds were closed but he figured it was worth a shot. “Teneile…please answer me if your there” he sad barely being able to keep from a sob.
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Post by Teneile on Feb 14, 2008 6:35:12 GMT 1
Teneile had retreated into herself. She couldn't be the happy person she had been before, she still danced, but it didn't have the passion. Her heart was broken and the other half of her life was completely gone. She didn't like her new life. Janet and Gastian had bought her food, bringing it over and trying to cheer her up, but she hadn't touched it, it was still there in the grocery bags they had set it on the counter. The place was a mess, the only thing she was actually doing was drinking protein shakes and taking her vitamins but she couldn't bring herself to actually eat. She was living out of a small bag of clothes, but that was that. She had not heard from Kazuma, not that he hadn't tried but she wasn't accepting his phone calls, whether he was trying to appologize or if he was going to yell and beat on her some more she didn't know.
This morning she had taken the dogs for a walk on the beach. They kept her sane. She had tried to commit suicide once, but Rocky had stopped her and let her cry for hours on his shoulder. She was not in good shape, but there was nothing she could do right now. AS much as she hated it, this was just her life now. Her bruises hurt, she didn't go out much, she stayed in the dark house. But Rocky and Bella needed to be walked and she liked listening to the ocean. Half her face was black with the bruise, there was no reason to wear sunglasses it wouldn't hide anything. She finally had been able to open that eye yesterday. And her arm was covered but she could barely move it without a lot of pain.
"Come on guys, lets get some food kay." she said softly to the dogs that stuck right by her side. Teneile looked so worn, black circles under her eyes, she was thin as a rail, emaciated in many ways, and she just looked sickly. She sighed as she knelt down and unhooked their leashes. "Hey buddy." she said as she pressed her forehead against Rocky. She smiled weakly.
"Come on guys." she said as she got up and the dogs ran ahead of her, racing up the stairs and onto the porch where Rocky stopped short and began to growl. Teneile came up the stairs too tired to hear the noise but when she got up there she saw Kazuma at the door.
"Kazuma?" she asked in a soft whisper as she looked up at him. Jeans and a long sweatshirt adorned her frame. She was showing sligtly now, but her sweatshirt hid it. "What are you doing here?" she asked crossing her arms beneath her chest she looked down.
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Post by Kazuma on Feb 14, 2008 6:54:29 GMT 1
He could heard growling behind him and he turned, there rocky was on guard, his legs spread ready to pounce as he bared his teeth his ears flapping hehind him. He was ready to attack. Kazuma could feel tears begin to well up. The dog he had raised from a stray puppy to a big 120lb guard dog was doing what Kazuma had told him to many months ago, protect mommy and the dog clearly would do so even if it meant attacking daddy. Had he really turned into that kind of a monster that even his own dog was willing to attack him afraid he would hurt teneile again.
He was already picking at his arm again it was lightly bleeding but he was so pumped ful of shit and his nerves were so shot he wasn’t sure he could feel much of anything. And then She came up the stairs. He saw the kind of monster he was in that moment he saw her face, not only the bruise but the way she looked so dead inside, he had all but killed her.
“I….I…” his back fell against the door as his knees went weak just the sight of what he had done made him wish he could have blown his brain out, he deserved no better. “Teneile…” tears began to run from his face, he was a wreak still juiced up. He picked harder at his arm he was so nervous and the scratching was a nervous twitch she had never seen before, he had never been so bad in his life.
Rocky stopped his growling, the dog could feel out kazuma and know he wasn’t hear to hurt anyone. “Its all my fault…I didn’t know…I…I’m sorry” he said as he looked down. She could dig into him all she wanted he deserved it.
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Post by Teneile on Feb 14, 2008 7:28:10 GMT 1
Her heart broke again and again. Seeing him in this kind of condition, she didn't know what to do. Part of her wanted to walk up and kick him in the balls for what he had done and the other part wanted to take im in her arms and show him that she still loved him. Even though he had hurt her, and broken her heart. She sighed, as Rocky quit growling she slowly pet him on the head and thought about it for a moment. He had hurt her, there was no getting past it, and he could easily see the damage he had done, it was quite visible, at least facially. She crossed the wooden porch for a moment and squatted down in front of him pulling his hand away from the open wounds she sighed and looked at his arm, covered in bloody gashes and scratches and by the look of his fingernails it was from him alone.
"What are you doing to yourself you stupid man?" she whispered with love and care in her voice.
"Come on." she whispered
She helped him get up and unlocked the door. She stepped inside not turning on the lights they all headed to the kitchen where she fed the dogs and got out a protien shake for lunch the grocery bags still untouched. She took Kazuma's hand without another word and led him into the bathroom where she motioned for him to sit on the counter. The bed in the room adjacent had not been slept in. She turned on the light and a soft yellow glow took over the room as she got some things out and lifted the sleeve of his shirt gently and began to treat his wounds in between sips of her shake. She did't say anything, not about what had happened she wasn't sure what to say, the moment she talked about it she would cry and right now Kazuma needed to be cared for.
"What.. are you on?" she asked softly. He knew what she meant, she knew what it was but she had to be sure.
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Post by Kazuma on Feb 14, 2008 7:44:52 GMT 1
Why why the hell was she being so kind to him, he could not understand why. He had come here looking for her to tell him it was over but instead she was being the woman he had fallen in love with while he had turned into so god forsaken freak of nature. He followed her without question, neither saying a word. She lead him into the bathroom, tears still crept from his eyes. His arm didn’t hurt but his insides did as he sure her were as well. She began to treat his arm and asked him what he was on.
He sniffled. “I….I don’t know the names of them all…the bottles are home” he sniffled again, his nerves were shot much like that time in new york. “Some of them were growth hormones…others tes boosters, others were just steroids” he admitted. He pulled his arm away gently, he didn’t know if she was done or not but he had to grip something. His left hand came back ontop of the scratches his hand locked around his forearm
“They…they gave them to me…said I had to be bigger for the next big show…said I would be alright” he looked at her “And…And I though everything was…everything seemed fine in my head” Tear began leak from his eyes “I didn’t even realize I hit you or yelled at you all those times….not until it got so bad that I” he stopped
And looked at her his eyes were in shock “Tell me…tell me you went to the doctor and that I didn’t hurt the baby” he asked worriedly
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Post by Teneile on Feb 14, 2008 7:57:08 GMT 1
Teneile looked up as he took his arm back and gripped it. Instead of letting him do that and agrivate the wounds she just cleaned she took his hand and held it herself, letting him grip her hand instead of his arm. It would be better for him. He began to explain what he was on and she sighed. She knew why he hadn't told her, because she would have burned it all and told him that he was stupid for even thinking of doing that. She looked up and sighed softly as she stepped foward reaching up with her free hand she wiped the tears off of her cheeks. He was a wreck. They could work on her problems and issues later what they needed right now was to get him back to sane and then they could figure out what to do with her all together. She leaned forward and placed her head gently on his shoulder breathing in his delicious scent and taking a moment to answer.
"The babies are fine." she whispered softly as she reached up with her free hand and stroked through his hair for a moment. Yes, babies, she had found out only the day before yesterday she was carrying twins. "I"m showing now." she said as she pulled back she lifted her sweat shirt to show her stomach and sure enough there was a slight bump there. On her side, dangerously close to their children was a bruise from the counter. But she pulled her shirt down again.
"Baby.. we have to get you clean, I don't know what possessed you to turn to this crap, but we don't even need the money. We're fine financially and we'll be better once I can dance again." she said softly.
"I .. can't come home til your clean. I won't put our children at risk." she whispered as she looked away.
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Post by Kazuma on Feb 14, 2008 8:29:24 GMT 1
“Babies?” he said looking up at her. She then lifted up her shirt showing her little bump hich he immediately feel in love with but then only hated himself as his eye caught a bruise on her belly. What had he almost done, what had be brought himself to do. But her scent it was her scent that was keeping him from just boiling down into an emotional blob.
She said he had to get clean and he nodded lightly his eyes closed, he knew he had to and he knew her other words were true to, throughout all their expenses they were more then fine financially, he had made sure they would be long ago by setting up a large savings just incase he ever got injured. And Teneile was right, after all they still got checks for royalties every time their image was used and it was used a lot.
“I called...called Eric. From the circuit, you know his girl friend Tamara…he…he told me there was a clinic close by that dealt with body builders who…who” it was hard to say and admit to himself “Get addicted to the juice and have abused it” he sighed his other arm came around her. “I don’t like being like this…I hate myself because of what I did” he began to cry into her shoulder “And I could have killed the only three people that will ever have any meaning in my life”
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Post by Teneile on Feb 14, 2008 21:15:44 GMT 1
She looked up from his shoulder he was hugging her now and right now she needed it. It was taking all of her strength not to break down in her own tears as much as she wished to do so. She closed her eyes, she had to be strong for him right now and strong for her later. She swallowed hard as he told her that he hd talked to Eric, he had apparently told Kazuma about a program for over juiced junkies and she pulled back for a moment just enough to look in his face, as she touched it softly. It had always been the face of love and support for her, and right now she had to be that for him. Later she would deal with herself. She nodded softly as he told her that he was going to enroll.
"When can you start?" she asked softly. "How.. how long will you be gone?"
She assumed it would be much like rehab. Where you went in and stayed until you were clean and independant again, until you understood the risks and wwasn't going to go back to it. She didn't want him to leave and yet, she knew that if they were ever going to have some semblance of normalcy he would need to go, and he would support him, and visit him, he wouldn't miss much, it wasn't like her life was that exciting without him.
"I'll do whatever it takes Kazzy." she whispered. "I jut want you off that crap and better. I never want to see you on steroids, they're bad for you Kazzy, how could you not tell me, you're life is more important than some stupid sponser."
"My life.." she swallowed.. "..should be too.."
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Post by Kazuma on Feb 15, 2008 0:11:29 GMT 1
She asked him when he could start and he sighed, never had he thought this would be were he brought his own life, nor would he have ever though that he would ruin their lives so completely. And yet she was still her for him, after everything he had done to her after all the promises he had broken in their sacred vow of marriage.
“Your life…is more important to me then my own” he whispered his arms let go of her and found her waist and pulled her just slightly away from so he could look into her eyes. “I’m sorry baby…I can’t even ask you to forgive me…there’s no forgiving what I’ve done” his tears had just stopped “I hurt you…and I almost hurt the one thing in life I’ve always wanted for us.” His eyes looked down at her stomach “Our family”
He stood up and took her into his arms once more he just couldn’t bring himself to let go of her.
“I called already…they said I could show up at anytime” he sighed “They..they told me they were going to pump me full of something to stop the rest of this crap from fully absorbing into my system…and that I would probably be confined in a room for a few days while I go through a withdrawal, Said I’d be to dangerous otherwise” he kissed her neck “Cause I was on it for a few weeks and not longer it should be quick…the mood swings should die out in two weeks and then they said I could go home if…if I was ready, but even then I’d have to come in twice a week for a while for blood tests”
He let go of her his head still down “I called…Gastian and Janet…they hate me…every one of your friends probably hate me now…but I asked them if they would come over the house…and stay with you for a few nights, and make sure your alright…and eat…even called up that therapist we went to after Zea” he looked up at her finally “Tenny…promise me you’ll see him…and that you’ll stay at the house and let your friends help”
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Post by Teneile on Feb 15, 2008 7:20:34 GMT 1
She couldn't say anything as he begged for forgiveness. Right now she was too hurt to really speak of what had been done to her. She didn't know how to fix what she felt, she felt betrayed on the most base level. He told her that he wouldn't do it again and began to describe the program to her. He would be gone for a while, and she nodded, having figured it would be something like that. It would be hard for the couple that had not been seperated for a long time ever. She looked up at him, she was so tired, her pain and weariness weighted heavily on her face as she moved away and sat down on the very edge of the bath tub, she put her face in her hands for a moment and let out a long sigh. It was very hard for her. She wanted to take him back in her arms and kiss him and make love to him, and yet the other part of her was scared to say much he was still on it, and he said himself the mood swings would't stop for two weeks which meant any moment now she could set him off again and this time she might not survive.
He then told her he had called Janet and Gastian. Her head shot up. But why? He began to explain and she bit her lower lip he'd likely be mad at her if he realized the food in the grocery bags on the counter was four days old and not just bought. She looked down as he mentioned the doctor they had seen when they had lost Zea, that man had saved Teneile in many ways and yet she was afraid to go back with her recent fears. Nightmares plagued her nights lately, and with no one to turn to, she didn't sleep much if at all now.
"I.. I'll have Gastian stay." she said softly. "I won't have Janet because she bugs me when she sleeps over, and drives me nuts, and on top of that all she can talk about lately is Bradly her new fling." she sighed.
"The doctor.. I.. I'll try to see him." she said softly as she looked at the floor for a moment and then up at him. She wasn't sure what to do, nor if she could call the doctor especially all bruised like she was.
"Kazuma.." she whispered. "Y.. you can't do this to me again, I .. I have to think of the children and.. and .. I .. I can't be afraid of you.. and.. you've got to be .. be open with me Kazzy, you .. you can't just.. make life changing decisions and thing.. it i.. it doens't effect me." she said softly, she held back the tears though, unwilling to let them fall
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Post by Kazuma on Feb 15, 2008 7:47:14 GMT 1
She sat on the side of the bath tub and told him she would have gastain stay and he nodded lightly. He was happy she would let him stay that was all he needed to know was some one would be there to keep an eye on her while his eye’s couldn’t be. He bit his lower lip when she mentioned the doctor, he knew they would both have to see him in the future, that they would both need help.
She then whispered to him that he could not do this to her again and he could feel his eyes welling up, he had done this and they both knew it, it was just hard for him to admit it. “Give me your hand baby” he said softly to her he knew she would be hesitant but eventually she would reach out to him. He took her hand within his own and lead her up from were she was. He knew what they needed, he knew what both of them would need if he was going to be gone.
He lead her to the bedroom, the bed lay untouched and he knew she had not gotten into it. He sat her down on it and gently lay her down on the mattress. He would then walk to its other side and get on it himself and curl around her his arm coming around her lightly, he was not tired but he needed to hold her like he had before “Can…can you still love me” he would whispered to her as they lay there.
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